what do i want..

What do I want..
Hmm.. made me think.. A few things in no particular order:

a. Laughter, cheer, fun - lots n lots of it!
b. No tears.
c. No tensions.
d. Lots n lots of love
e. a pretty and happy home
f. a few close and special friends
g. work that makes me feel happy, satisfied and proud
h. someone who would listen to my mindless chatter all life
i. trust
j. patience
k. To do what I want to do, to be with who I want to be

No end to desires.. I could go on and on..

What is it that I do wrong!

Where do I go wrong.. What is it that I should have done.. should be doing..

Cryptic.. My blog has become all cryptic now :)

What happened to all the bloggers that I knew

Is anyone really blogging these days? Rarely do I see the updated sign against anyone's name on the Blogroll. Even though I havent been logging in frequently. But even so.. where did everyone disappear..

Simply bored!

I'm bored. I'm bored. I'm bored.

Indian Idol!

I find it unbelievable that people resorted to such violence on the streets on the basis of the remark that was made by the RJ. I would consider torching vehicles, stopping an ambulance from passing through and attacking people a far graver offence than making a statement of the kind which R J Nitin did. And did he mean anything derogatory aimed at a specific community. I doubt it. And why I'm saying so is that I've often heard his shows and I've seen the way he makes fun of things and people, but never aimed at any specific community or person. I think we need to stop taking everything so seriously as if it is meant as a personal insult. Which one of us has not had a laugh at the expense of Sikhs/ Santa Banta Jokes? Things should be taken in the spirit in which they have been said and not blown out of proportion like they are being done right now. And as I read in the news, the RJ has apologised for hurting the sentiments of the community. Can we please start taking things in the spirit in which they are said? We really need to learn the ability to laugh at ourselves. Even if we feel that what is said is not right and should not have been said, there is always a way to protest. Violence is not the answer to everything that we don't agree with.

Had to put this up :)

Thanks Sudeep for sending this :)

What are we here for?

Am I here only so that I can get up in the morning, get ready, go to office, spedn the entire day there, come back home, eat dinner and sleep? Passing some time in between on the phone, or on the net of course.. thats it? and the weekends maybe watching a movie, or meeting some friends? Is that all there is...

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What's with everyone!! we're all so angry all the time.. dont like the way someone is driving? try n push them off the road.. you honk and people don't move away.. beat them to death..What!! Is it worth it? This is absolutely insane.. I can't help getting angry when someone cuts me off in a real bad way while driving or keeps honking unecessarily.. but hey.. who's getting affected by this anger? It's only me.. and noone else.. That person's gone.. and he doesnt care..I got to learn to keep my cool.. and in fact all of us do! We're becoming a nation of angry intolerant people.. or maybe we already are..

Hard day..

No matter how hard you try, its impossible to come upto people's expectations. You will constantly live with a guilt of not having done enough. Is it fair to yourself? Or is it just better to forget everything else and keep yourself happy..The brickbats are always going to be there while the bouquets will be rare..

Crap!!

What the hell is this.. Burning buses, creatign jams, makign life tough for ordinary people! What for? Stoning police, creating a ruckus.. dont people in this country have anythign better to do!! Why do they dervice such a pleasure in destroying public property.. waste of time and resources when we already hv a shortage of both!! what if somebody lives on a daily wage.. and eh cant reach to whis work place because of these people.. what's his fault? what's anybody's fault in all of this? why should we be affected? and why is the central government sittign idle and not doign anything about this.. this government has just pushed and is still pushing this country so deep into this caste ruckus that it is going to take us all down one day. I used to think illiteracy is the biggest problem of this coutnry.. but now i think education or no education its caste politics, caste issues which will never let us rise..

not done..

I don't understand this!! Boycott ads which cricketers endorse.. vandalise their houses.. what!! Why are we such bad losers? yeah, we lost.. why not accept it and move on!! We weren't good enough, others were better.. so what! why put someone on a pedestal and throw him down later? Don't worship cricketers.. they're no asking you to do that.. but learn to accept defeat gracefully..

One more thing..please ppl do not send me any director of orktu is shutting down orkut or throwing me out of it msgs!! im sure thts not going to happen.. so lets please not worry abt tht!! :)

How tough it is to create, and how simple to copy. There is such a lack of originality everywhere, and I have also become caught in it. Cut copy paste.. simple!

So when I sit down to write something on my own, my thoughts just don’t flow..

Wat am I saying!! Well I think I stopped making sense long time back ..lol..

There is this urge in me to break free, to follow my dream.. The problem is the dream is all hazy, unidentifiable.. it is here somewhere, yet I cannot find it. There is this lack of satisfaction with life.. I try to be positive, but it doesn’t work all the time.. I have become too caught up with the daily chores of life to think, to do..

And I’m tired of sitting inside office all day.. I need to move! I know I come back here and keep writing this everytime..lol..

I have even stopped writing on this blog, which I enjoyed so much..

Feeling all alone right now..

Too many depressing posts..no more :)

Saw this on Rathna's blog.. it's some bits from a speech by Steve Jobs that I really liked:

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Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Numb

What do I want from life? I want everything. I want my dreams to be fulfilled.. I want to live life the way I want to. I want happiness..

Am I looking for too much? I don't noe.. am really confused about a lot of things right now and I dont know how to end the confusion. Where do i go.. What do i do...Am scared about the future.. God..show me the way please..

Why should i have a subject for everything?

Do you have to try hard to be happy? or does it just come naturally...

"Give more, Expect less" .. the secret of happiness. how simple .. is it?

Do you love your work or ..


No matter what you're doing.. you have to be good at it.. and only then will you hold some value for people..no matter what..

So even if you dont like ur work.. still give ur best shot.. thts how i keep motivating myself, every few days when i get down..lol :)

I think I need some action right now.. feeling too dull.