Every once in a while I get taken by the monotony of it all. Thats not how it is supposed to be is it?

Why dont we always get what we want? Because we dont know what we really want.

"Dil Ki Yahin Khatha Hai, Dil Ko Nahin Patha Hai

Ki Dil Chaahtha Hai Kya"

I can barely write a post which is more than 4 lines long now.. I think Iv forgoten how to write .. and read. Its been ages since I finished a book. Trying to finish one now, I hope I succeed. My
attention span has become ever shorter than before :)

At times I wish I could stay in a world of my own, without coming back to the real world.

Going down the memory lane can be injurious to mental peace at times.

Missing home..

Why does existence seem so meaningless every once in a while.

At the end of the day we're all alone. Surrounded by people all around, some of whom love us, some of whom care for us, some of whom like us, some of whom dislike us, and most of whom dont even know about our existence or couldnt care less. Yet, there is no one, no one who is going to be there forever.

People come, people go. A relationship that was so important yesterday means nothing today. Memories fade away, life moves on. And we carry on.

And we can only be happy if we learn how to not expect. Then everything you get becomes a blessing. Its not so easy and its not so tough. Its however so easy to let go of anger, disappointment when you learn to not expect.

Lakshya

Life can be so monotonous if there's nothing to look forward to.. if there's no goal to keep you motivated.. I dont think we get whatever we aim for always, but atleast it keeps us going.. And that is why.. success or disappointments.. there has to be something.. something that keeps you going.

Its not mine.. just heard it..

tu mill jaaye....to koi aarzooo na rahe...

tu mill jaaye....to koi aarzooo na rahe...

shayad isiliye khuda ne tujhe hamein nahi diya...

I wonder what I used to do before orkut and facebook existed :)
In fact.. what did I do before the internet existed..
And what about the mobile phone.. .

How Im so dependent on all of this.. sigh.

what do i want..

What do I want..
Hmm.. made me think.. A few things in no particular order:

a. Laughter, cheer, fun - lots n lots of it!
b. No tears.
c. No tensions.
d. Lots n lots of love
e. a pretty and happy home
f. a few close and special friends
g. work that makes me feel happy, satisfied and proud
h. someone who would listen to my mindless chatter all life
i. trust
j. patience
k. To do what I want to do, to be with who I want to be

No end to desires.. I could go on and on..