I feel old..lol

 Just randomly came here and scrolled down right to my first post ever which was in 2005! Gosh, 16 years ago! How did all these years go by so quickly. 

I miss writing, sharing my thoughts so freely like I used to. There days there is hardly any time to read, write or ponder. Work, getting school work done for my son and just doing stuff around the house takes up all the time. I wonder how it will be like to get back to 'normal' life as it used to be before this pandemic hit us. Will it ever be the same I wonder. 

So much has happened in the last year and yet it almost feels like nothing has happened. We are just stuck where we were. There are days when it feels like it will never end, where I feel life is just passing by me. And then there are days that the sun finally comes out and makes it all better.. 

Happy endings..

Im a sucker for happy endings. If it's not happy, it's not the ending.. How i wish it was true. Life doesnt always give you one. So i look for them everywhere else. No wonder I don't even like movies which don't have one.. 

Random

Went to the most boring birthday party ever yesterday ! No one knew others at the party, the host had no clue about what to do.. Didn't have the sense to introduce people to each other... I don't know maybe they were just shy people but then it is your party ! 

It was a kids party but there was nothing to do for the kids.. I'm not usually this critical you know.. :-)

Late!

I am always late. For everything. Events, parties, dropping aarav at school, play dates.. You get it. I think other than work, I am late in anything to do with personal life. And I think I even know why. It is simply because 1. I am not an early riser 2. I sleep late but can't do with less sleep 3. I always underestimate the amount of time it would take me to finish tasks at hand and reach. And I'm now worried I'm pulling aarav into this bad habit. Rushing him to play school in the morning.. Why shouldn't he walk down the stairs leisurely or jump if he wants to. I need to give him that 5 minutes right.. Really need to sort this habit for his sake..

There was a time a few years ago when I had blogged about a ban. Government ban on blogging websites. And today another kind of ban has been imposed. A ban on porn websites in India.

Frankly, Im not sure how I want to react this time. A ban is a ban. Violation of freedom of speech and expression. Blah Blah.

Really? Freedom of speech for porn? Actually, I was pretty non chalant about it till I read some articles about the impact of porn on people and especially young kids. You have to watch this one to understand -

Why I stopped watching porn | Ran Gavrieli | TEDxJaffa

With the ease of availability of every damn thing on the internet, is it actually possible to stop kids from viewing something like this? I don't think even with banning some websites, it will be possible. Cause several others will mushroom. It's a billion dollar industry, they will find ways and means to reach their audience.

Anyway my point here is not on the effectiveness of porn, but on simply the fact that I dont think you can consider it like any other ban on freedom of speech. Where is the speech and expression here? Porn is nothing more than objectification, humiliation, aggression against women. You have child pornography which is completely unlawful.

Does anyone happily and willing become a porn star so that they can showcase their acting skills? More often than not, it would be a situation of a forced or desperate means to earn a living. So what is wrong in imposing a ban which may affect an industry which is only exploitative?

Some very scattered thoughts here I know.. 

I have a long long to-do list and all I want to do right now is sleep.Sigh.

Mother in laws

So, the subject of today's discussion is going be.. ahem.. MILs. Are they really like those EK serial type women? Well to be honest I always though those were so delusional and unreal but listening to some friends of mine and their stories.. phew.. I have changed my mind and I really thank my stars that I have been lucky to have a really nice mother in law. Although I don't think I am the best daughter in law around..

Listening to some crazy stories of mental harrassment, I wonder what makes us independent women still not willing to speak out, to go against what is wrong. And what makes these Indian men (maybe not all, but really so many of them) act like their parents can do/say no wrong. Will this ever change?